Its seriously already September??
I don't know whether to cry or rejoice that this summer is FINALLY over. Its been the hardest summer of my entire life, filled with bittersweet moments and the realization that there is a purpose unbeknownest me, that I am intended to fulfill.
I left for Chicago the last time I posted and I shall share some fantastic pictures with you all!
Chicago is one of those city's that you definitely want to explore with your significant other or at least your best friend. It has SO much to offer and its incredible. It was so nice to get away for a week with no agenda but aimless wandering around a new city.
I highly encourage you do this at some point in your life.
Pick a place to go. Don't have an agenda. Bring enough money that you can do whatever you want and just be yourself. You owe it to yourself.
I don't know how to work this blog well when it comes to posting pictures so I didn't know how to make them pretty and not so aggressive. So enjoy or don't enjoy. Whatever.
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| First thing I did when I got off the plane. Chicago Style Hot Dog and a "312" brew!! I had this twice on my trip. So good. (Rikki, they serve Veggie ones too!) |
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| Look what I found on the boardwalk by the lake! Cornhole. And I played it. |
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| Real Chicago Style Pizza! All others will never compare. Ever. |
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| My hotel. Hotel FEEEEE-Lix. Where they serve all you can drink Mimosa's on Sundays for $20. Yup. |
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| Hugh Hefner eat your heart out. |
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| LEGO LAND! This is all I wanted to do the whole trip was go here. Hi, I'm 7. |
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| Miami Beach or Chicago? Who cares. It was sunny and there was a DJ on the boardwalk. |
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| Laying in bed drinking "312" local Chicago Beer and watching the Top 20 Lil Wayne videos. |
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| Me and my travel companion, Drew on our way to eat at Friendship Sushi |
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Drinks on the 95th Floor of the Hancock Building! (building where Chris Farley was found dead. Sad face) |
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| Chicago Board Walk with Chicago in the background. |
Upon my return, I had to go into hiding for a while so I have been working all over various locations of the state.
Not to mention that when I returned, my travel companion told me he couldn't be friends with me anymore because he had feelings for me that I clearly didn't have for him. He then noted to tell me how I just didn't seem like I would ever be interested in anyone from the way I acted towards guys. Like I just didn't care. So apparently, I have no soul when it comes to dating, men, or relationships in general. Awesome.
I think my problem is I still miss Matt. I miss him every single day. For a few days the whole "Out of Sight/ Out of Mind" mentality works, but something always reminds me of him.
You would think after 4 months of not really speaking to someone and airing out all the feelings, anger, issues, etc. that I wouldn't really care anymore and just be over it. Wrong. You spend 5 years with someone that you don't speak to at all any more. Like it never happened. It doesn't settle well with me, still. I find it baffling that's its September and I feel this way.
Oh well, the heart wants what the heart wants. And it clearly doesn't want anything at the moment but peace.
At least I got this picture sent to me from my office (below). Highest award you can receive on your team every quarter. (every 3 months)
At least my teammates think I have a soul.
Love you all that read this....And Rikki, I've been praying all day for you and Austin.
